Now that 's I call trouble.
The last few day has been sooo tired.
Mid-term test and SAT all together
They worn me out
I am sick and tired
Don't know what is pushing me
Through all this
And make me suffer



Mommy, is it you who put hope on me
Making me go through this
NO! NO!
I DON'T THINK SO



Or is it you daddy
Who love me so and want me to success
NO! NO !
I DON'T THINK SO.



Then it must be me
The girl who want the best
Who want to reach and be so strong
But that's not what I am right now
Sinking and losing my hope
My life purpose and my happy smile



They'd all gone
No more

For long I forgot my friend
Leave memory to blur and forget my loveone
I lose my past

Then I head to future
Forgotting about frind around me
Distance myself and let them forgot me
I lose my present

Now after all I went through
So close to the goal
I forgot why I want to be there, why I running, and for that
I lose my future

I lose all but I won't give up
I'll live on and find what I want
I'll make friend and make love
I'll find my purpose and my own way
Even if the old me have lost and never be found
I shall not stop
Will start over and creat a new me
There is all way time
And I'll make every second of my life count
Don't want to waste
Any more minute
I'm standing right up
And start walking
To tomorrow

My friend!
Today I read your blog for the first time and I read the thought you share us. It don't make me cry but a little something is left. You have always been the friend I love, for the kindness and gentle you giveus all. You have always helpful and I've seen you get med before. You always smile but I know beneath that happy face is the pain of sickness. And thought god isn't love you enought for a healthy body, you love all other creation of him.
You live with the happiness I envy to. Around you are friends attracted and I found myself in them. And I know no matter how much I go I wil always remember you and your smile and the way u live. I don't know what you thing about me but I hope somewhere in your hart there is a place for me.

Finally, today I write my essay for the US university. It comes quite easily, much easier than I though. I guess that is pay off of 4 night just thinking about it. It's a long 600 words essay about I get into my current high school. Even thought it seem like a normal essay, I think it's not so normal and can be out-standing others essay or at least don't put the reader to deep sleep. Guess I check I later to see if I falling asleep myseft.
Lately all I do on net is looking for admitration information. There are numberous of them but the most useful like where to downloading from and other things is nowhere to find. I swear after I get though with this I would put the whole project online for the later generation. I do find some web of my country student but not so helpful I must say.

Change

Lately I've been thinking if I am still a tomboy. That's strange. When I was young all I want is to be consider as a boy and do everything I want. I spent time with boys, talk like a boy, act like a boy. Since when did I start to realize to be a girl is much better for me? Since when I start to raise my hair and be so soft? Since when did I want to be consider equal to boy but as a girl? That's so funny.
The more I look at myself, the more I found I have change. Then why do I so certain that I will not change anymore? Even the hardest rock wear out after time then why not me? Guess I'm stupid to be so sure. Do you??

Read post

Suddenly I read a post of a friend and feel so strange. A bit empty, a bit full, a bit happy and a bit sad but none is correct. As the same age, in the same class but we have so much different. He has so unfamiliar experience realizing that he has hurt someone and could not redo. It's so strange for me. I couldn't remember anything like that. I couldn't remember if I have hurt someone( except for my brother which I'll never regret hurting literal or mental).Is it because I'm too good in relationship to hurt people or becausei have close myself to any relationship so noone can hurt me and therefore I don't hurt anyone. I don't even know is it good or bad. It's true no one want to be hurt but am I missing a part of life??? Guess I have to answer this myself.

Smile

You 've already know Vietnam is a warlike country. In our history book we learn mostly about war. How sad. As a teen I know my people have more than that. We're good not only in war but also in peace. If you come to Vietnam once you will see how friendly we're- especially for foreign people. We always smiling. I have seen many natives- including myself- talk to foreign with a very friendly attitude and a big smile.
Vietnamess said "Smile is the best medicine." and I could really feel how they apply it to real life. If you come to a kindergarden or primary school you'll see nothing but smile and hear nothing but laugh. I remember when I was a child I smile all day, and I mean it, 24/7 even in my sleep. When I grow up, along with everybody I become less and less smile but still smile in most conditions.
I have learned with a lot of foreigner. Some of them only stay a few days, the others stay many years but they all agree in one point their most beautiful memory about this country is a smiling girl no matter which ethnic groups they from.

Van

I fallow my blog again. It's bad! Right? Lately I found a new interest. Neuro linguistic program(NLP). It's amazing and really helpful. I have test on some people and it work out so well. More than I expect. I can tell what 're people thinking and gain their favours easily.
I remember telling that I would give some infomation about my country- Vietnam. Honestly you can read about it in many website. So I won't give official informaiton. Just a few teenage's look about life around me. Hope you like it.