I have been pretty confuse about my coming up birthday. But keep sitting around looking all confuse will help me nothing so I decide to check what I have done in the last year and what should I do in the coming age. One of my friend do this on New Year and it look fun.
So first comes my check list:
April: got a cell phone
May: leave high school (19/5: final day as high school student)
June: graduate from high school
July: university entrance exam
August: get into University of Banking
September: get out of University of Banking (that was quick)
October: start studying at RMIT
November: one month at RMIT and still alive
December: two month at RMIT and still alive
January: pass final exam + prepare for Tet holiday
February: back to school
Match: start studying dance + pronunciation
And here is my to do list: (no order)
_ Get a driving license
_ Can actually dance
_ Don't lose or broke the cell phone (I change cell phone twice last year (><))
_ Speak English better
_ Study GMAT again
_ Got a part time job
_ Study another language (maybe French. I want to read my cousin blog)
_ Read Gone with the wind + Jane Austin collection
_ Find a boyfriend ( the hardest one)
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Birthday
My birthday is in two days. For some reason, I keep feeling I'm not ready to step into another age.
Before I'm 18, I want 18 to come quick probably because I'm waiting for some magical change when I reach 18. I would become more responsible, wiser, happier, so on and so on. I think when I'm 18 I will be at better use for people around me. But here I am, almost 19 and I feel no different to me when I'm 16. I go to different school, study higher but is there anything that is different 'bout me? I think I look the same. I haven't grow at all last year. I live with my parent, get allowance. I go to school and go back to home. My life haven't change at all and I'm scare.
I've been an official adult for a year and I have yet to accomplish anything. That doesn't feel right. What should I do with my life is still unclear. What do I want? I don't even know. Every time I meet with question such as what is your favourite food? What is your favourite movie? I skip. I don't understand myself anymore. Some how the talkative girl with opinion disappear but in stead of some more mature woman in her place there is nothing. How can I bring this mess with me into 19. If the inside girl don't grow what is the point of celebrate the body get old?
Is it just me or everybody has to gone through this state of confuse?
Before I'm 18, I want 18 to come quick probably because I'm waiting for some magical change when I reach 18. I would become more responsible, wiser, happier, so on and so on. I think when I'm 18 I will be at better use for people around me. But here I am, almost 19 and I feel no different to me when I'm 16. I go to different school, study higher but is there anything that is different 'bout me? I think I look the same. I haven't grow at all last year. I live with my parent, get allowance. I go to school and go back to home. My life haven't change at all and I'm scare.
I've been an official adult for a year and I have yet to accomplish anything. That doesn't feel right. What should I do with my life is still unclear. What do I want? I don't even know. Every time I meet with question such as what is your favourite food? What is your favourite movie? I skip. I don't understand myself anymore. Some how the talkative girl with opinion disappear but in stead of some more mature woman in her place there is nothing. How can I bring this mess with me into 19. If the inside girl don't grow what is the point of celebrate the body get old?
Is it just me or everybody has to gone through this state of confuse?
Monday, March 16, 2009
First Time
First time:
I write about Amotizen in my blog. I hardly ever share any feeling I have for Amotizen. It's not because I don't love amo. I just treasure amo too much. Being one of them is a privilege I don't know how I deserve. Memo about Amo is what I hang on to when everything is lost. Being with amo is a dream too wonderful I know I could never imagine on my own.
I go with amo to eat hot pot. One of a time experience. The best thing is I come back without any injury. No wet pain (poor Chu), no burn (almost couldn't make it) a shrimp and a few piece of cuttle-fish. I learn that the greatest battle of all is the one happen on a dinning table.
Nothing help you ease down as an afternoon with amo.
I write about Amotizen in my blog. I hardly ever share any feeling I have for Amotizen. It's not because I don't love amo. I just treasure amo too much. Being one of them is a privilege I don't know how I deserve. Memo about Amo is what I hang on to when everything is lost. Being with amo is a dream too wonderful I know I could never imagine on my own.
I go with amo to eat hot pot. One of a time experience. The best thing is I come back without any injury. No wet pain (poor Chu), no burn (almost couldn't make it) a shrimp and a few piece of cuttle-fish. I learn that the greatest battle of all is the one happen on a dinning table.
Nothing help you ease down as an afternoon with amo.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
A new year
I really need a new year check list. you know some paper that you write what you want to accomplish in the next year. Why? Because I feel like it have been a year already and I still haven't do anything good. Oh my good, I'm turning 19 in two month and I still have so much I want to do before that age. Where did the time go.
A bit of ifonramoitn
Do you konw taht if you mix up the ltteres in a wrod and keep the frsit and fnail lteter un tucoh you can siltl usnretdnad the wrod? It hvae been sicenfitcailly povred. Cool isn't it.
Left behind
I'm not leaving anybody or get abandon if that's what you think.
This is the event that bring this on. Last week is the Lunar New Year, as tradition, I go visit my teacher on the third day of new year. Actually I have never properly visit my teacher during New Year holiday but it is not my false my family love to travel on this occasion. Anyway, the teachers that I visited are two of our former teachers in high school, that is why I went visit them with a group of my classmate in high school.
I think I should give some more information about my high school class. Different from many Western country, in high school we don't choose class according to subject and teacher. We study with the same classmate for years. This create a strong bond between every student. In my class, this bond is exceptionally strong. During our high school year, we are one, we call ourselves by a name, treat each other equally. There are argument and each of us have our small group of close friend but it didn't stop us from being one and being equal. We study the same thing, at the same school. In short, we are all the same.
But thing change after we graduate. Sure, we are still a group, a close society include the craziest of the crazy in the world, but beside from the time we hang out with each other (which is very rare now) each of us are walking their own path, each of us are making their own success and for some reason, I seem to be the one who stay the same. When I heard my friends talk to our teachers, a part of me think of them as the same as the boy or girl I study with, but the other part, the part that heard about their concern and success, the part that heard about their current life feel like they are at a place so high and so far away I can't ever reach. For some reason I can't move on at they have done, for some reason I stay behind and hold on to the pass. If only I know what is that reason. ***sign***
This is the event that bring this on. Last week is the Lunar New Year, as tradition, I go visit my teacher on the third day of new year. Actually I have never properly visit my teacher during New Year holiday but it is not my false my family love to travel on this occasion. Anyway, the teachers that I visited are two of our former teachers in high school, that is why I went visit them with a group of my classmate in high school.
I think I should give some more information about my high school class. Different from many Western country, in high school we don't choose class according to subject and teacher. We study with the same classmate for years. This create a strong bond between every student. In my class, this bond is exceptionally strong. During our high school year, we are one, we call ourselves by a name, treat each other equally. There are argument and each of us have our small group of close friend but it didn't stop us from being one and being equal. We study the same thing, at the same school. In short, we are all the same.
But thing change after we graduate. Sure, we are still a group, a close society include the craziest of the crazy in the world, but beside from the time we hang out with each other (which is very rare now) each of us are walking their own path, each of us are making their own success and for some reason, I seem to be the one who stay the same. When I heard my friends talk to our teachers, a part of me think of them as the same as the boy or girl I study with, but the other part, the part that heard about their concern and success, the part that heard about their current life feel like they are at a place so high and so far away I can't ever reach. For some reason I can't move on at they have done, for some reason I stay behind and hold on to the pass. If only I know what is that reason. ***sign***
Friday, August 8, 2008
Breaking Dawn
To be honest, I have only read Twilight a week ago. In one week, I spent most of my hours (day and night) reading the whole story including the newest book: "Breaking Dawn".
The first 3 book, as many have say, is very impressive. Different from Harry Potter, Twilight is not a book about action. The lack of even is no doubt but Meyer have done amassing job detailing her character. Interesting how she only use one character point of view but describe everybody thought (good thing Bella is observant). The developing of Bella is not so illogical either. The way she completely collapse when Edward leave is not so unpersuasive and remind me of another love story: "P.S. I love you". More persuasive as this is a fantasy. True to its style, Twilight's character is extreme is many way. One annoying matter is when Bella's thought reflect many other character, it doesn't give us enough information to get in to Edward's head while many of his move in the first two book is time and thought comsuming. This mystery might be enlighten should "Midnight sun " be published.
The main plot start with two even: the hunt of James and Edward leaving Bella. The hunt's consequence stretch out in the first three book and finally resolve in "Eclipse" at the same time the Edward&Bella&Jacobs settle down with Bella make clear of her choice. And truthfully, in the of "Eclipse", I only wonder how she gonna resolve the conflict with the Volturi. In some way, the story may be close here. Still leaving behind a mess but not bad for an ending.
When I finally hold "Breaking dawn" in my hand, or exactly when I finish the first few chapter, I kind of surprise the wedding is happening without something happen. No offend but you know how something often happen before the bride say "I do". The wedding happening neatly and from here new problem occur. However, since Bella is already a not so realistic character (HELLO, FANTASY STORY REMEMBER), her reaction for the wedding and even the baby is not something so illogical. After all, every princess need a prince and a wedding is a good way to show that. Bella changing attitude about the wedding and college is not so difficult to understand too if you look at it this way: from after the hunt Bella have already partly cut herself out of the "normal" world. For that reason, she even more attach to Edward or the Cullens family, the only one she can depend on in the world of mythology. And of course, it make her even more unconcern about college. This kind of thought will never appear in reality but this is a fantasy book so no problem.
Bella attitude about the marriage life is ,however, more difficult to discuss. Ever since she agree to Edward's proposal, Bella have always try to avoid the wedding talk. It didn't help to have Esme and Alice planning every thing and her doing nothing. After passing the pressure of rumor for marriage at such a young age is the altar, the party and the honeymoon. I doubt she even have an idea that she is now a marriage woman. The honeymoon baby is of course of no help. Especially when the bearing is so difficult and the baby growing so quickly. Even after spending time with Nessie she confess that she is still not use to the idea of being a mother. I think Meyers have skip all the feeling about marriage and motherhood first because she don't mean to discuss the idea. More or less this is a teenage love story, such idea may not be suitable and in the other hand, there is simply not enough room. If she wanna discuss this problem the way she do the first 3 books there will definitely be a book 5 or 6.
For reader who see the book as a bad example for girl, I think they have to see the book as a fairy tale. It's not about message or life orient but rather about happy ending. And as a sad ending make you cry and unsatisfied, a happy ending, especially a "neat" one like this, make it feel so very satisfy that some how uncomfortable. No one have to suffer anything is good but the ending just so perfect leave me with a weak impression than the one should have occur.
Of course the book have it weakness. As I said it will be better if the plot didn't go so fast. The description of Bella thought is still not enough. Meyers let Bella changing to fast from one state to another without much portray about the change. She easily accept the fact that she is a mother without much thought about responsibility. Bella thought is always occupied by danger to come and stress there is hardly any space for her feeling about Nessie and Edward-as a mother and wife. In a way even though she is now a mother, Bella remain a young teenage girl.
One thing I still concern about the book, a problem that occurs in the whole series: even though Bella is portray to be in charge in many thing: she take care of her parents and in a way more mature than her friends in high school. She seems to depend too much on Edward but once again that might not be so illogical consider she have always been in charge of so many thing and already tired of it. Having someone who she could depend on and who love her, there is no way she not making use of the situation and depend on him.
As always, everything have the good and the bad side of it, overall I still think the book absolutely worth reading. If you take it easy and don't try to logic it out so much, you will find it a true art work.
The first 3 book, as many have say, is very impressive. Different from Harry Potter, Twilight is not a book about action. The lack of even is no doubt but Meyer have done amassing job detailing her character. Interesting how she only use one character point of view but describe everybody thought (good thing Bella is observant). The developing of Bella is not so illogical either. The way she completely collapse when Edward leave is not so unpersuasive and remind me of another love story: "P.S. I love you". More persuasive as this is a fantasy. True to its style, Twilight's character is extreme is many way. One annoying matter is when Bella's thought reflect many other character, it doesn't give us enough information to get in to Edward's head while many of his move in the first two book is time and thought comsuming. This mystery might be enlighten should "Midnight sun " be published.
The main plot start with two even: the hunt of James and Edward leaving Bella. The hunt's consequence stretch out in the first three book and finally resolve in "Eclipse" at the same time the Edward&Bella&Jacobs settle down with Bella make clear of her choice. And truthfully, in the of "Eclipse", I only wonder how she gonna resolve the conflict with the Volturi. In some way, the story may be close here. Still leaving behind a mess but not bad for an ending.
When I finally hold "Breaking dawn" in my hand, or exactly when I finish the first few chapter, I kind of surprise the wedding is happening without something happen. No offend but you know how something often happen before the bride say "I do". The wedding happening neatly and from here new problem occur. However, since Bella is already a not so realistic character (HELLO, FANTASY STORY REMEMBER), her reaction for the wedding and even the baby is not something so illogical. After all, every princess need a prince and a wedding is a good way to show that. Bella changing attitude about the wedding and college is not so difficult to understand too if you look at it this way: from after the hunt Bella have already partly cut herself out of the "normal" world. For that reason, she even more attach to Edward or the Cullens family, the only one she can depend on in the world of mythology. And of course, it make her even more unconcern about college. This kind of thought will never appear in reality but this is a fantasy book so no problem.
Bella attitude about the marriage life is ,however, more difficult to discuss. Ever since she agree to Edward's proposal, Bella have always try to avoid the wedding talk. It didn't help to have Esme and Alice planning every thing and her doing nothing. After passing the pressure of rumor for marriage at such a young age is the altar, the party and the honeymoon. I doubt she even have an idea that she is now a marriage woman. The honeymoon baby is of course of no help. Especially when the bearing is so difficult and the baby growing so quickly. Even after spending time with Nessie she confess that she is still not use to the idea of being a mother. I think Meyers have skip all the feeling about marriage and motherhood first because she don't mean to discuss the idea. More or less this is a teenage love story, such idea may not be suitable and in the other hand, there is simply not enough room. If she wanna discuss this problem the way she do the first 3 books there will definitely be a book 5 or 6.
For reader who see the book as a bad example for girl, I think they have to see the book as a fairy tale. It's not about message or life orient but rather about happy ending. And as a sad ending make you cry and unsatisfied, a happy ending, especially a "neat" one like this, make it feel so very satisfy that some how uncomfortable. No one have to suffer anything is good but the ending just so perfect leave me with a weak impression than the one should have occur.
Of course the book have it weakness. As I said it will be better if the plot didn't go so fast. The description of Bella thought is still not enough. Meyers let Bella changing to fast from one state to another without much portray about the change. She easily accept the fact that she is a mother without much thought about responsibility. Bella thought is always occupied by danger to come and stress there is hardly any space for her feeling about Nessie and Edward-as a mother and wife. In a way even though she is now a mother, Bella remain a young teenage girl.
One thing I still concern about the book, a problem that occurs in the whole series: even though Bella is portray to be in charge in many thing: she take care of her parents and in a way more mature than her friends in high school. She seems to depend too much on Edward but once again that might not be so illogical consider she have always been in charge of so many thing and already tired of it. Having someone who she could depend on and who love her, there is no way she not making use of the situation and depend on him.
As always, everything have the good and the bad side of it, overall I still think the book absolutely worth reading. If you take it easy and don't try to logic it out so much, you will find it a true art work.
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