Don't get scare yet. I'm not taking about thought in which ghosts and vampire running wild. Actually, it is a even more scary one. The kind of thought in which you questioning your own existence. Do you know that for each of us the chance that we even been born is ever small? I'm taking 1/1,000,000 the most. One false move in the history line and we won't even be there. But the chance of existence is still much larger than that of another being growing up become the person you are. Every experience you have been through in your life help make you the person you are. They influenced you one way or another.
But after all that hard work what did we have to offer back life. I question that all day as I sit still contributing nothing to life and yet taking too much. I waste my parents money by eating, going to school, playing. I eat animal and drink water to exist. I breath in O2 and release CO2. I damage this whole planet just by living. And for what? Most of my accomplishments are in studying. I help my parents but very little. I realize all of this yet I do nothing. I cannot stop people from staving to death. I can't even make a decent meal for my family. I can't help people who have AIDS, I can't even keep myself from catching a cold. I can't clear the world of war when my siblings are still frighting over the computer.
I'm nobody, my existence mean nothing to almost no one. But one day that will change and with every move I make, every good deed I do, that one day is getting closer and closer.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Bored
Just like every normal student, I await for summer every school-day. And now as the happy moment finally comes and the tests are history-no-more. I feel bored. I tired of summer the same way I tired of school. Illogical, I don't think so. After all, if you can get bored of going to school everyday how can you never tired of taking summer holiday.
I still remember the feeling of wanting a vacation when I'm over my head with test and lesson. But now every day pass is a torture. All those time I spend doing almost nothing make me feel so left out. Left out of society, of life, of everything.
Of course I didn't sit at home all those time. In fact, my summer only start 21 days ago and through that short time I have gone out so many time with so many people. Several time with my classmates, a few with a group of close friend and a few meeting with my relative. Still all I feel is bored and empty.
I REALLY NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE AND DO SOMETHING THAT ACTUALLY HAVE SOME MEANING.
I still remember the feeling of wanting a vacation when I'm over my head with test and lesson. But now every day pass is a torture. All those time I spend doing almost nothing make me feel so left out. Left out of society, of life, of everything.
Of course I didn't sit at home all those time. In fact, my summer only start 21 days ago and through that short time I have gone out so many time with so many people. Several time with my classmates, a few with a group of close friend and a few meeting with my relative. Still all I feel is bored and empty.
I REALLY NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE AND DO SOMETHING THAT ACTUALLY HAVE SOME MEANING.
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Disney's song
Welcome to my post-big-test post.
Anyway it is not the reason I post this. Lately I have been watching quite a lot of Disney movie. First King Caspian and now Kungfu Panda. Disney sure have many achievements this summer. However, the movie is still not what I want to write about, rather the song they use.
There is no doubt what so ever that Disney know how to choose it song. While Disney movie only leave a simple mark the song in another hand affect me quite badly. There is "The Call" in PC, "Real Gone" in Cars back in the old time I love "Kiss the girl" in The little mermaid and a bun more I can't remember. These songs in their turn charm me. I remember listen to "The Call" for three days in a row again and again and again. Then I reach the limit and sick of it. Still I admit it is a great song. Sound even better in the movie. I remember hearing it at the end and it is breathtaking. Talk about good timing, I can't imagine a better place to put it and I don't think there is any other song that could express the characters' feeling better. Disney really a wizard in music. The song is actually leave the strongest impression on me and make me wanna watch the movie again. On the other hand, in Cars, "Real gone" is sung in the first minute create the mood for the movie without it I don't think I can have that "live" mood mean for the movie. "Kiss the girl" appear in the middle simply to create a romantic mood. But one can not denial it have done its job terrifically that is one lovely scene.
Well, I'm out of stress now. Bye bye.
Anyway it is not the reason I post this. Lately I have been watching quite a lot of Disney movie. First King Caspian and now Kungfu Panda. Disney sure have many achievements this summer. However, the movie is still not what I want to write about, rather the song they use.
There is no doubt what so ever that Disney know how to choose it song. While Disney movie only leave a simple mark the song in another hand affect me quite badly. There is "The Call" in PC, "Real Gone" in Cars back in the old time I love "Kiss the girl" in The little mermaid and a bun more I can't remember. These songs in their turn charm me. I remember listen to "The Call" for three days in a row again and again and again. Then I reach the limit and sick of it. Still I admit it is a great song. Sound even better in the movie. I remember hearing it at the end and it is breathtaking. Talk about good timing, I can't imagine a better place to put it and I don't think there is any other song that could express the characters' feeling better. Disney really a wizard in music. The song is actually leave the strongest impression on me and make me wanna watch the movie again. On the other hand, in Cars, "Real gone" is sung in the first minute create the mood for the movie without it I don't think I can have that "live" mood mean for the movie. "Kiss the girl" appear in the middle simply to create a romantic mood. But one can not denial it have done its job terrifically that is one lovely scene.
Well, I'm out of stress now. Bye bye.
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
In the End
In The End, the Very End when time run out and the book close.
Last night, night of departing, night of sorrow and night of joy. We end a chapter in our life, close down a book and start a new one.
I can remember a few thing I've done that night. Dancing, cheering, eating, drinking, laughting and crying, of course, but I can't remember what I have in mind at the moment. They are all a bluss, a set of emotion mix up, blend in. I hug my friend and cry but I don't know for what. I simply can't not make out the reason my tear choke my words. Am I cry for us never be the same as we are now? Am I cry for the beautiful part of my life I have to leave behind? I don't know and I will never be.
It's funny how we can be so different from what we show people. most of the time A1 was mean to be the noisy, naughty class. We annoy everyone and seem so shallow. Nobody know under that shell are beautiful hearts. We love each other, care for each other. We cry and laught together. Between us are the unbroken bond creat by love, the love we develop with so much effort in three whole year. We have argue, there is none 46 people can be together with down having a agrument, but in the end it is the love, the caring we feel for each other that last and will last forever.
When I think about the departing night it always remind me of a fairy tale. But this is an unfinish fairy tale. The final demon are yet to be defeated. The hero still have a lot to do. Maybe he win, maybe he die trying. Anyway he have a long trouney ahead and his companion is nothing than the happy thought of glory past.
Last night, night of departing, night of sorrow and night of joy. We end a chapter in our life, close down a book and start a new one.
I can remember a few thing I've done that night. Dancing, cheering, eating, drinking, laughting and crying, of course, but I can't remember what I have in mind at the moment. They are all a bluss, a set of emotion mix up, blend in. I hug my friend and cry but I don't know for what. I simply can't not make out the reason my tear choke my words. Am I cry for us never be the same as we are now? Am I cry for the beautiful part of my life I have to leave behind? I don't know and I will never be.
It's funny how we can be so different from what we show people. most of the time A1 was mean to be the noisy, naughty class. We annoy everyone and seem so shallow. Nobody know under that shell are beautiful hearts. We love each other, care for each other. We cry and laught together. Between us are the unbroken bond creat by love, the love we develop with so much effort in three whole year. We have argue, there is none 46 people can be together with down having a agrument, but in the end it is the love, the caring we feel for each other that last and will last forever.
When I think about the departing night it always remind me of a fairy tale. But this is an unfinish fairy tale. The final demon are yet to be defeated. The hero still have a lot to do. Maybe he win, maybe he die trying. Anyway he have a long trouney ahead and his companion is nothing than the happy thought of glory past.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
BIRTHDAY
My birthday is 5 day before I write this blog. It's a bit normal if you ask me. 18 is supposed to be something big, something important. Just think about it, now I'm officially old enough to vote, to work and of course to marry (lately it is all the girl talk about. It's really funny since non of us take it serious). But come to think of it what have I expected? It's still the sme old girl (18 is old???). I grow up in body but maybe not in mind. Still reckless, lazy and some what irresponsible. Guess I have to be big myself before expecting something big ^_^.
PS: hey is it me or lately I become more cheerful.
PS: hey is it me or lately I become more cheerful.
Monday, April 7, 2008
La Corda O'Dor
Now let's talk about my brand new interest: La Corda O'Dor. It's a anime just show on ANIME but I have already watch it on YouTube. It's great. The characters, the story, the writing, they are all great. I especially love Len. He's cool ( hot won't work for describe him)
I'm hopeless
Seen the title yet? STRANGE, isn't it??? I mean after all the word I gave out about believing in myself and think possitive now I'm lowing mysell???
But realy I'm hopeless, uncurable in this VERY matter: FEELING.
It's true I used to turn down a boy even before I know he was asking me to be his girlfriend. It's true that when I leave my secondary school I don't drop a tear ( I don't like it that much anyway ). But this is different. I love my current class. I spent three great years with them. I LOVE THEM. But when asked to write some farewell words, I just couldn't do it. My writing is rock hard. It has grammar, vocabulary (in Vietnamese) but no feeling at all, not a drop. Oh God, this is horrible. I'm thinking of having my heart check. I don't think it is functioning right. OH MY GOD.
But realy I'm hopeless, uncurable in this VERY matter: FEELING.
It's true I used to turn down a boy even before I know he was asking me to be his girlfriend. It's true that when I leave my secondary school I don't drop a tear ( I don't like it that much anyway ). But this is different. I love my current class. I spent three great years with them. I LOVE THEM. But when asked to write some farewell words, I just couldn't do it. My writing is rock hard. It has grammar, vocabulary (in Vietnamese) but no feeling at all, not a drop. Oh God, this is horrible. I'm thinking of having my heart check. I don't think it is functioning right. OH MY GOD.
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