Mask

When I was young I'm very easy to get upset. Up set not mad (I don't think I'm aloud to get mad). I have two younger sibling at a quite early ages so it's common to feel jealous. I always think that my mother is hard with only me and go easy on them. However I don't complain much since our culture said that the older must be nice to the younger.
Thought I know that I still sad and think that I'm the only one who sacrifice, the only one who suffer and my siblings have a wonderful life. That 's thought follow me to outer world and I think so everytime I have to do something unlike I want for others 's conveniences. I smile, wear a mask and do what people want. After years living like that I feel miserable and as I almost blow up I meet an arguement. I don't remember if it's a news, a book or a said and I don't remember it by heart but I have change me a lots. "In our society everybody wear a mask. When somebody feel dissatisfied it's because he compare his real person with others 's mask. Deep inside everyone has his own problems. He just don't speak out loud.". Since I read this I have reconsider life of people around me. I've found out that I'm not the only person who have trouble. Everyone does. I can't have everything I want. To live in this world I must make a lot of concessions because others do the same too. When I come to understand this clearly I feel my life become much easier. I learn what my little bro and sis 's problems and try to help them out, after that I ask them to do something for me and everybody is happy. I do the same for people around me and find my jobs easier. But the best effect of it is no longer am I feel I'm being treat unfair and I become happier.
Sometime I wonder what will happen if I don't read that arguement. I guest I must have give up long ago and let my life run its course or maybe I will end my life(that's terrible). However I'm very glad I've read it.