From a story book

Have you read "Peter Pan and the red coat"? It's a new officially-accepted story of Peter Pan. At the age of 17 I still love to read this. Not because I believe in it but because it remind me of my childhood. All the idea in that book is so "crazy": when you wear someone clothes you will become him or her, you can make food appear but by imagine... Yes, they're all stupid. But isn't it what we have thought when we were just children, lived in a much more less complicated world. I thought this book is ful of insane ideas like that until I read a line. It belong to a villain: captain Hook, but it hit me: the moment when we dream about having a caree, being something but a child, that moment we have abandon or childhood and grow up.
Is it true? Does having a plan for you future change your life that much? Well, I have my own answer. Yes. I've always known that ever since I want to become an engerneer- my first dream job. But didn't realize it until I read the book. Unlike Pan, I have accepted the change. Peter Pan is admirable but he is piteous too. He like with eternal joys and everlasting youth. He can enjoy all the fun of being a child and carry no responsibility. But he will never know the sweat juice of growing up, never see all the new horizon that only an adult could see.
But me an grow up person is also pity for my life too. As a growing up teen, I could see many thing, do many thing that Peter can't do. But like other people I also being saddled by responsibilities. And of course there are days i just want to get rid of everything and come back being a child. Unfortunately, I can't. And fortunately, I can't. I have chosen to grow up and I have to accept the side effect of it.
What about you? Do you have days you want to go back like that? I guess yes. Sometime I think people who choses to suicide must have a lot of day like that. They make choice and it turn our to be a bad one. They can't come back so they decide to end their life forever. They can't handle there responsibilities. I don't criticize them, I don't try to understand them either- noone can fully understand other's feeling. But I will not make the same choice. The reason I'll tell you later because at you see this post has gone so far and I'm losing control. So byebye.