Lately I've been thinking if I am still a tomboy. That's strange. When I was young all I want is to be consider as a boy and do everything I want. I spent time with boys, talk like a boy, act like a boy. Since when did I start to realize to be a girl is much better for me? Since when I start to raise my hair and be so soft? Since when did I want to be consider equal to boy but as a girl? That's so funny.
The more I look at myself, the more I found I have change. Then why do I so certain that I will not change anymore? Even the hardest rock wear out after time then why not me? Guess I'm stupid to be so sure. Do you??
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Read post
Suddenly I read a post of a friend and feel so strange. A bit empty, a bit full, a bit happy and a bit sad but none is correct. As the same age, in the same class but we have so much different. He has so unfamiliar experience realizing that he has hurt someone and could not redo. It's so strange for me. I couldn't remember anything like that. I couldn't remember if I have hurt someone( except for my brother which I'll never regret hurting literal or mental).Is it because I'm too good in relationship to hurt people or becausei have close myself to any relationship so noone can hurt me and therefore I don't hurt anyone. I don't even know is it good or bad. It's true no one want to be hurt but am I missing a part of life??? Guess I have to answer this myself.
Friday, June 29, 2007
Smile
You 've already know Vietnam is a warlike country. In our history book we learn mostly about war. How sad. As a teen I know my people have more than that. We're good not only in war but also in peace. If you come to Vietnam once you will see how friendly we're- especially for foreign people. We always smiling. I have seen many natives- including myself- talk to foreign with a very friendly attitude and a big smile.
Vietnamess said "Smile is the best medicine." and I could really feel how they apply it to real life. If you come to a kindergarden or primary school you'll see nothing but smile and hear nothing but laugh. I remember when I was a child I smile all day, and I mean it, 24/7 even in my sleep. When I grow up, along with everybody I become less and less smile but still smile in most conditions.
I have learned with a lot of foreigner. Some of them only stay a few days, the others stay many years but they all agree in one point their most beautiful memory about this country is a smiling girl no matter which ethnic groups they from.
Vietnamess said "Smile is the best medicine." and I could really feel how they apply it to real life. If you come to a kindergarden or primary school you'll see nothing but smile and hear nothing but laugh. I remember when I was a child I smile all day, and I mean it, 24/7 even in my sleep. When I grow up, along with everybody I become less and less smile but still smile in most conditions.
I have learned with a lot of foreigner. Some of them only stay a few days, the others stay many years but they all agree in one point their most beautiful memory about this country is a smiling girl no matter which ethnic groups they from.
Van
I fallow my blog again. It's bad! Right? Lately I found a new interest. Neuro linguistic program(NLP). It's amazing and really helpful. I have test on some people and it work out so well. More than I expect. I can tell what 're people thinking and gain their favours easily.
I remember telling that I would give some infomation about my country- Vietnam. Honestly you can read about it in many website. So I won't give official informaiton. Just a few teenage's look about life around me. Hope you like it.
I remember telling that I would give some infomation about my country- Vietnam. Honestly you can read about it in many website. So I won't give official informaiton. Just a few teenage's look about life around me. Hope you like it.
Friday, June 22, 2007
Busy time
Lately I've been a bit busy. Serious! I start to find an US university that I want to get in, look for information about "The burning time"( if you have watch Witch Hunter Robin then you should read it) and go to summer school at the same time.
It's been quite long since I decide to try to enter an univesity in another country and I found US is the easiest way. I have pretty good marks at school and my English is acceptable( not a good at the natives but still good enough). I already have TOEFL (82/120) and I'm working on SAT. Shortly I'll have no problem to enter an good university. The problem lies on my finance. If I want to study abroad I must find the money by my own. There is noway I can find that much money by myself so I'm looking for a finance-aid. I try to have good scores to get a scholarship about 30000 USD/years but it's not easy, SAT 2000 at least and I'm far from it so I'd better work real hard.
About "The burning time", I admit that I have reread it many time recently. I have read many fanfics but non like it. It's a fanfiction of WHR. I've found a lot of fan-work of the fanfic and I really think they can make a sequel rely on this and it could be even better than the original. By the way I love WHR. Its characters are great. Robin is such an innocent, lovely girl and Amon is a real-walking contradiction. The two make such a strange pair but still great. In TBT, the story is raised to a new level with new characters. Mimosa (the author of TBT) have made the story more interseting by her incredible knowledges about ancient witches.
It's been quite long since I decide to try to enter an univesity in another country and I found US is the easiest way. I have pretty good marks at school and my English is acceptable( not a good at the natives but still good enough). I already have TOEFL (82/120) and I'm working on SAT. Shortly I'll have no problem to enter an good university. The problem lies on my finance. If I want to study abroad I must find the money by my own. There is noway I can find that much money by myself so I'm looking for a finance-aid. I try to have good scores to get a scholarship about 30000 USD/years but it's not easy, SAT 2000 at least and I'm far from it so I'd better work real hard.
About "The burning time", I admit that I have reread it many time recently. I have read many fanfics but non like it. It's a fanfiction of WHR. I've found a lot of fan-work of the fanfic and I really think they can make a sequel rely on this and it could be even better than the original. By the way I love WHR. Its characters are great. Robin is such an innocent, lovely girl and Amon is a real-walking contradiction. The two make such a strange pair but still great. In TBT, the story is raised to a new level with new characters. Mimosa (the author of TBT) have made the story more interseting by her incredible knowledges about ancient witches.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Lately I've been looking for a manga name Hanasekeru Seishounen. It's not an easy job at all. Although I have both the Japaness and the Vietnamese name I can't find the last 6 vols of it in any language. It's quite common for me to suddently interested in a manga but after a while I will forget it.
This story I'm interested in is quite good. Mostly because the ways the author build the characters. I especially like Iokazu- one of the main characters. It's not because he 's hot but the way he acts. It's so common. He does everything to protect his treasures including hutting her.
One thing make me prefer Japaness manga than Western comic is the way they contribute the characters. They are very humanity. They're full of contradictions. They've their own thoughts, their own wants. In comic you can see two types of characters- good and bad. But in manga you can't do that. Each character has good and bad in side them. We can't jugde them or their actions easily. Everything in manga look more realistic than comic too.
This story I'm interested in is quite good. Mostly because the ways the author build the characters. I especially like Iokazu- one of the main characters. It's not because he 's hot but the way he acts. It's so common. He does everything to protect his treasures including hutting her.
One thing make me prefer Japaness manga than Western comic is the way they contribute the characters. They are very humanity. They're full of contradictions. They've their own thoughts, their own wants. In comic you can see two types of characters- good and bad. But in manga you can't do that. Each character has good and bad in side them. We can't jugde them or their actions easily. Everything in manga look more realistic than comic too.
Friday, June 8, 2007
Mask
When I was young I'm very easy to get upset. Up set not mad (I don't think I'm aloud to get mad). I have two younger sibling at a quite early ages so it's common to feel jealous. I always think that my mother is hard with only me and go easy on them. However I don't complain much since our culture said that the older must be nice to the younger.
Thought I know that I still sad and think that I'm the only one who sacrifice, the only one who suffer and my siblings have a wonderful life. That 's thought follow me to outer world and I think so everytime I have to do something unlike I want for others 's conveniences. I smile, wear a mask and do what people want. After years living like that I feel miserable and as I almost blow up I meet an arguement. I don't remember if it's a news, a book or a said and I don't remember it by heart but I have change me a lots. "In our society everybody wear a mask. When somebody feel dissatisfied it's because he compare his real person with others 's mask. Deep inside everyone has his own problems. He just don't speak out loud.". Since I read this I have reconsider life of people around me. I've found out that I'm not the only person who have trouble. Everyone does. I can't have everything I want. To live in this world I must make a lot of concessions because others do the same too. When I come to understand this clearly I feel my life become much easier. I learn what my little bro and sis 's problems and try to help them out, after that I ask them to do something for me and everybody is happy. I do the same for people around me and find my jobs easier. But the best effect of it is no longer am I feel I'm being treat unfair and I become happier.
Sometime I wonder what will happen if I don't read that arguement. I guest I must have give up long ago and let my life run its course or maybe I will end my life(that's terrible). However I'm very glad I've read it.
Thought I know that I still sad and think that I'm the only one who sacrifice, the only one who suffer and my siblings have a wonderful life. That 's thought follow me to outer world and I think so everytime I have to do something unlike I want for others 's conveniences. I smile, wear a mask and do what people want. After years living like that I feel miserable and as I almost blow up I meet an arguement. I don't remember if it's a news, a book or a said and I don't remember it by heart but I have change me a lots. "In our society everybody wear a mask. When somebody feel dissatisfied it's because he compare his real person with others 's mask. Deep inside everyone has his own problems. He just don't speak out loud.". Since I read this I have reconsider life of people around me. I've found out that I'm not the only person who have trouble. Everyone does. I can't have everything I want. To live in this world I must make a lot of concessions because others do the same too. When I come to understand this clearly I feel my life become much easier. I learn what my little bro and sis 's problems and try to help them out, after that I ask them to do something for me and everybody is happy. I do the same for people around me and find my jobs easier. But the best effect of it is no longer am I feel I'm being treat unfair and I become happier.
Sometime I wonder what will happen if I don't read that arguement. I guest I must have give up long ago and let my life run its course or maybe I will end my life(that's terrible). However I'm very glad I've read it.
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