I'm hopeless

Seen the title yet? STRANGE, isn't it??? I mean after all the word I gave out about believing in myself and think possitive now I'm lowing mysell???
But realy I'm hopeless, uncurable in this VERY matter: FEELING.
It's true I used to turn down a boy even before I know he was asking me to be his girlfriend. It's true that when I leave my secondary school I don't drop a tear ( I don't like it that much anyway ). But this is different. I love my current class. I spent three great years with them. I LOVE THEM. But when asked to write some farewell words, I just couldn't do it. My writing is rock hard. It has grammar, vocabulary (in Vietnamese) but no feeling at all, not a drop. Oh God, this is horrible. I'm thinking of having my heart check. I don't think it is functioning right. OH MY GOD.